It's Life

A Wedding

2012-02-05T22:20:00.001+08:00

No, not mine but my cousin's. These are more intimate pictures of us cousins, think of it as behind-the-scenes photos. Partly because the day was so hot and the bride's room is equipped with air-cond so I mostly stayed in there. Heh heh heh. Congratulation to my cousin and her groom anyways :)

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2012-01-31T17:16:00.003+08:00

Images of The Virgin Suicides Photobook by Sofia Coppola from Lula Days

My fascination of the story starts when I became a reader of Tavi Tulle's blog (Style Rookie). I end up buying the novel and ended up being like the boys in that book, fascinated by the sisters. I still haven't got the chance of watching the movie (being a complete noob when it comes to downloading movies). And a movie by Sofia Coppola must be good. I mean look at the photo book! It looks so lovely for something that is so depressing. Anyone have this movie? Or at least tell me how & where to download it?

Yes I'm a little depressed and pissed and hurt but there's no class today so I'm pretty cool with it. I like to throw a pity party by myself so yeah *munches donuts*

p/s : No, I don't believe suicides should be done eventhough I was on the the government team who supports it for the debate on this topic. And let me tell you, I suck at debating. That may be the first and last time I'll be debating thank you very much.

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2012-01-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hasil voucher buku RM200 :

1 Moleskine
1 Report pad
2 Novels (one is for my mother)
3 Pilot pens (G-1 is my favorite but I don't always buy them because of the price)

Anyways, rasa macam dah tahu nak buat apa untuk degree. Tapi tak tahu macam mana nak bagitahu ayah *le sigh*. Sekarang seronok cuti 4 hari straight tapi weekends depan ni ahad baru balik rumah, tidur rumah satu malam, pagi pagi isnin balik kampus. Balik pun pasal baju tak cukup sebenarnya. Malas aih nak angkut baju bebanyak balik habis sem nanti, dahlah aku tingkat 2 (entah macam mana lah yang floor atas, lagi seksa mengangkut barang), jadi baju aku kena switch tiap minggu.

Dan a beneficial video walaupun mungkin ramai dah tengok, dan kalau anda adalah antara yang dah tengok, sila tengok lagi.

I do take notes about the political happenings, tapi kebanyakannya dramatic bebenar dan everyone disagrees that it comes to the point semua tak nak kalah tapi tak ada siapa yang fix the real problem. Makanya malas nak ambil peduli sebab buat aku emo lelebih je nanti. Plus, I never really like politics because it can show how foolish a person can be.

Thankful & Stressful

2012-01-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah. I've been wanting this baby since forever but I'm not the kind that asks or nag my parents if I want something expensive. I either earn it through having a super good result or buy it with my own money. My mother is big on not having a spoiled brat child, hahaha. That is why I can't stand people who are rotten spoiled, it just irks me. I've accumulate enough money to buy it and, well, yeah, I bought it.

Also, something that I should also be thankful of, I've passed my MUET exam. Though my writing marks is kinda pathetic if I may say so. I'm slacking on my writing since enrolling here. There is just not enough time.

Right now I'm still unsure (and stressing about) what should I take for my degree. Obviously people are pushing me to take law but I'm not sure if that is what I want to do. Why do you judge people from their choice of course anyway? It doesn't make people any less intelligent than others. Those who judged others based on their course are the unintelligent ones. But honestly, right now I felt as if I am just wandering endlessly.

Terukir Di Bintang | Yuna's Showcase

2012-01-08T16:07:00.000+08:00

The show was awesome. Her voice is super perfect, it was as if you're listening to a recorded track. And my goodness when she sang Penakut and Decorate, I got goosebumps! It was that good! I first got her EP when I was in form 3 and now I almost finished my foundation studies a.k.a. tadika (inside joke man, don't ask).

Here is the awesome part, the queue for meet-and-greet session was reaaaaaaaaaaaally long. No kidding! So we decided to lounge on the stair after taking pictures with Pa'an (Yuna's band member) and AG Coco (with his legendary hair. I mean, dude, his hair is better than mine!). Then it was like 11.30pm and we pretty much gave up since the crowd still haven't disperse. AND THEN A MIRACLE HAPPENED. My pregnant sister was sitting on the sofas having a conversation with Yuna's mother and we were about to leave when she pulled my sisters hand and called Yuna to take a picture with us. So yeah, we cut the queue but hey, my sister is pregnant people! lulz

After that we went for late supper at Sikhumvit at Kampung Baru since everyone is hungry and gastric-prone and arrived home around 2am. But it was all worth it. Such a good event for a head start of other events for this year. Aaaaand here is some the pictures. Enjoy your weekend!

Goodbye 2011

2011-12-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is a new year. In each end, there is a new start.
Things I've learned, things I've gained, things I lost
are memories, something that had occured
A past that is only to be looked back, not to be stayed in.

- I went back to my hometown in Sabah after years of not going back. - Passing my SPM with flying colours. - Got my driving license - Got accepted into the law foundation in UiTM. - Got accepted for a conditional offer scholarship program. - I'm finally 18 and legal. - Got my first own car - Broke up, twice. (Yes, laugh at me) - Been cheated on. - Finding my strength to get up and stand by myself. - All the good times with new-found friends. - Discovered that I actually like karaoke (thanks to the gang) - Learnt that what I want and what people expect of me can differs, by a big degree. - Actually stays in a residential college and not at home. - Met afro (and practically fell for him on the first time we met; thanks to him and his charming smile) - Stayed overnight off-campus. - Slept at mcdonald to wait for the campus gate to be opened. - Absolute craziness and insanity and happiness and sadness in a year.

Charlie Brown - Coldplay

Basically, I grew up this year I guess. It was a good year. Joy & tears, fun stuffs, sad stuffs, all rolled into a fantastic package called 2011. However, we need to move forward and make the most out of each day we get through. It was a great year, with the ups and downs and lessons learnt and it's time to turn the page now. 2011 was an awesome and fantastic year, let's hope 2012 will be the same if not better.

So here is an early wish from me : Happy New Year people!

The Wishlist

2011-12-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

I've been craving for a lot of things due to all the stress of studying. It's also almost the end of the year so most of us are making some new year resolutions and planning on what to get for ourselves next year. So here are just some list of the stuff that I like and wish to have. *cough*take note afro*cough*

1. Random clutch at my fave online shop (still is a secret, don't bother to ask, I won't tell) 2. Jeffrey Campbell 'Foxy' : I had found this gem at Sunway Pyramid actually and still am kicking myself for not buying it. (photo from Google Images) 3/4/5. Urban Outfitters totes : Am still wondering why aren't their outlet is in our shore yet. I like 'em better than Uniqlo really (Urban Outfitters)

I'm clutch hunting and dress hunting since we have a dinner to be attended next year(macam lama je lagi aku sebut next year kan?). But I've already ordered the clutch with a maxi dress because I'm getting lazier to wear jeans as I always scrambled to find my belt (I have two belt for jeans but I pretty much only wore one of it). I'm stopping myself to buy unnecessary shoes and still am keeping up the good work but this JC shoe is just too awesome. The three photos of the totes is pretty much reflect what kind of bags that I prefer nowadays. I'm a student with a daily hectic schedule and lots of book to carry around all day, everyday. Half of my day is at the faculty. It's too much of a hassle to go back to my college so I need an easily-accessed, big and especially durable bag.

6. a-Jays four (Jays) 7. I_KL Moleskine notebook (Moleskine Asia) 8. Ravn Shopping Bag (Carolines Mode) 9. Ipod Classic (Apple)

Now, the earphone. My reason : just because. Harhar. I mean, who doesn't love a good earphone? Plus, I'm always with my music on my morning bus trip to the fac. From what I read, Jays exceed Beats by a lot. The tote is just so awesome that I had to include it even though it is close to impossible for me to get it. And the number two on my list; Moleskine notebook. I'm doubting if I_KL is still available so I'll probably settle on a squared (large) journal. I used to have a diary but it just doesn't work out much. I'm more on random thoughts so sometimes I writes a lot or doodle and at times I just wrote one or two word. My number one wish is to have ab Ipod classic, because touch is just so mainstream. Okay kidding, no. It's because I'm a hoarder, I don't like to delete my old music even if I rarely listen to them, so I need a big capacity storage for my music player. My blackberry memory card is almost at the limit due to the music I have in there as it doesn't only act as my smartphone, but also as my current music player.
So yeah, that's my current wishlist. How about you guys? Any wishlist or resolutions?

[Update]

I almost forgot, I'm going to this event. Be jelly. Kbai *flip tudung*

A Trip To :

2011-12-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

Drumrolls please! Guess where we went? The Palace of Justice! Atau dalam bahasa ibunda kita, Istana Kehakiman. Lawatan sambil belajar for us law asasians (I made that term up, we don't call ourselves like that). It was great and a whole lot of fun! Ikut hati nak je upload semua gambar yang berjumlah lebih kurang 300 tu tapi tak larat aku nak resize semua.

The tour consists of going into the Conference Room or Bilik Persidangan, the Perpustakaan, Muzium Kehakiman & *jengjengjeng* some of 15-20 us lucky people get to go into the court that is having a trial. I'm one of the lucky ones. Can you tell how excited and happy I am? :DD And we also visit the cafeteria, but that wasn't part of the tour, we were just hungry. Teehee.

The defendant's attorney was Datuk Salehuddin who is a ex Timbalan Pendakwa Raya and had given us a talk or two at the facs. You may remember him from the Altantuya case. Honestly, it was comforting to find a familiar face inside the court cuz it was quite intimidating for a first timer like me. We saw the convicts (OKT) shivers and one of em stares at us. At first I was the only girl that came in, the others are the boys and our lecturer so I pretty much hid behind the guys. The funny thing is, I got picked to get into the court because when we enter an empty courtroom, I joined the boys inside the kandang pesalah just for the giggles. When they told us to get out, I thought they were mad at us but then we were told that we are to go into an ongoing trial.

Anyways, the first trial (two OKT) got a pretty happy ending as they didn't get the death sentence as Datuk argued about the real amount of drugs is not the amount that was stated (it was a drug case for both trial). The second convict lost the case and still get the death sentence. It still doesn't feel surreal for me. But that's that. And the classmates had fun taking photos, well, actually not taking photos but having their photos being taken , really. But I don't mind because they are awesome like that :D

Come & Rest Your Bones With Me

2011-12-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday and we didn't went back to Kajang like we initially planned. Instead we went to Ikano. Got myself some macarons (yayyyyyyy!) a super cheap blazer from Padini and some books. I'm a sucker when it come to books :D

Life in college are tiring. I didn't get the same room with Numie or Shasha or Asza and got myself on the second floor and my room is at the end of the hallway which is really faaaaaaaar away when I need to go to class. Pfffttt. Currently short of cash after paying for all the fees and buying all the books. We had to do mooting this semester and our team got torts..... or was it contracts? Whatever. I have two term papers, forums, debates and individual speeches. It's gonna be a real hard work for me since I was such a slacker.

However, I did enjoy my Social Psychology class. Got an interesting topic for our Global Issues class, and a very nice lecturer too for that matter. We're going to the Palace of Justice this Thursday like school kids on a field trip. No kidding, we have to wear black & white baju kurung. And no, we are not allowed to wear suit either. Don't ask why. That's why I said it's a school field trip. *Muka kanak-kanak ceria riang ria*. Also, there's gonna be a dinner for us asasi students but that's going to be in February but hey, it's something to look forward to.

Now both of us wears spectacles. This is a not-so-recent conversation anyways. I wish he can come here but, well, yeah. Whatever. I guess I am disappointed but I don't want to nag or push him to much. I know and understand the situation but the heart wants what the heart wants, and sometimes it hurts :/

Because I know you're stalkering me and that you like Neon Trees

Monotone

2011-11-18T22:35:00.002+08:00

Siapa kita untuk menyalahkan Tuhan yang memberikan kita kehidupan?
Mudah alpa. Semua yang berlaku ada hikmah, jangan selfish.
Usaha & bersyukur apa adanya.

"Tapi aku tak boleh hidup sorang macam ni"
"Memang tak boleh. Selagi kau tak bergantung pada yang tak mati"

It's A Birthday!

2011-11-14T23:14:00.002+08:00

Not mine but Cik Kak Nurul! (or Nurul CakapCakap, whichever name you prefer). She's finally 21 & eligible to vote now, yay her! The birthday was held at Gravy Baby (which is plain awesome, just love the atmosphere there.) Pretty laid back and there was an acoustic performance where Nadia Rustham sang and the birthday girl herself sang some song (and based from the cheers outside, got a few new fans I think, harhar). A fun night all in all or should I say, 'paling manang!'. Hahahaha

The birthday girl!

Random Rant

2011-11-10T18:33:00.001+08:00

Mai sini ceq nak cerita sat. Ok mukadimah saja slang Kedah, kawan aku kata kalau aku try cakap Kedah for real, bunyi macam Siam, which is not cool at all. Setakat nak slang cenggitu boleh lah kut. Anyways, tadi wa online, ada lah ternampak pula status entah siapa entah (seriously tak kenal, aku approve bukannya aku kenal pun, sebab tu malas nak approve orang dah sekarang). Kemain lagi marah marah sebab orang tak comment atau 'like' gambar dia walaupun dia dah comment & 'like' gambar orang lain. Okay fine kau marah, tapi sini ceq nak tanya sikit. Hang tak ikhlas lah ye sebenarnya bila 'like' atau comment gambar orang? Lepas tu nak suruh orang 'like' & comment gambar hang lah pulak? Apa kau ingat ini Myspace? Nasib baik hang bawah umur lagi, kalau tak aku comment besar besar dekat status hang tu aku tulis 'YOU'RE IMMATURE MUCH'. Tu ja aku nak habaq.

Oh ha'ah ada orang guna gambaq aku jadi DP dia tapi dah settle, terima kasih kepada rakan FB yang sama-sama jadi mangsa. Sempat kami jadi madu lagi sebab si pencuri in a relationship dengan rempit mana entah. Kalau handsome takpa lah jugak aih. Ini baik wa stick dengan si afro.

In conclusion, facebook dah makin banyak makhluk annoying, tapi dah ramai makhluk annoying dari Facebook datang ke Twitter. Oleh itu Imma Tumblr-ing all the way. Sukahati aku lah nak ikut hang ke tak, nak paksa paksa pula. Dulu mula mula blogging ni naik pun cenggitu, tak taubat lagi ka? Kbai & jangan nak mintak wa ikut hang punya Tumblr pulak, ada jugak aku baling mercun karang.

selingan

Mari berhibur dengan matluthfi yang berjaya buat saya gelak walaupun tak ada mood sangat.

p/s : Kepada matluthfi (walaupun dia takdak baca blog saya), saya tak layan lagu cintan cintun Melayu ni, saya layan ni ja ; I want nobody nobody but hang.

Void

2011-10-30T10:24:00.000+08:00

Headache. Tired. Hungry. Empty.

"Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones"

Dear Tiger

2011-10-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

No I am not talking about the tiger with the claws, it's this tiger.

Happy Birthday to Mr. Tiger! Congratulations! You're (finally) officially 20! You have one more year to be eligible to vote! (You're pretty old aren't you? LOL)
I know you are very hardworking, probably one of the most hardworking guy I've met, and I know how much you want to reach for your dream. Keep up the good work and may Allah bless you the privilege of making that dream comes true. And I miss you, I know I've been saying that a lot but I really really do.

p/s : Boooo, kita yang lagi excited dia punya birthday berbanding dia sendiri. Dia kemain mengantuk nak tidur. Haha, that's my guy, tired after a day at work. Nasib awak lah kena kerja lagi esok. Sleep well dear tiger :)

Spellcheck

2011-10-26T20:54:00.001+08:00

Okay aku tau ini isu yang agak lama, tapi masih sangat susah aku nak faham kenapa sesetengah orang masih tak reti mengeja. Bila aku panggil bodoh reti pula nak marah, tahu pula nak eja betul betul. Hang kata comel? Sat na, aku nak muntah sikit. Sungguh tidak comel bila umur kau dah 18 tahun tapi masih mengeja macam budak sekolah rendah. Geli tahu tak? G E L I.

Pengajarannya, belajar mengeja dan praktikkan ejaan yang betul. Jangan hampakan cikgu Bahasa Melayu dan English anda. Paling tidak pun guna lah spell-check tu.

.........

A good old friend called and start rambling about how I owe 'em a cup of tutti frutti because I didn't made it back to Kajang on the day I am supposed to hang out with 'em. I can't stop giggling. It's good to hear a familiar voice from the past.

I miss W a lot, he's so far and I am so afraid. If you're reading this tiger, you better get the point. We don't know the future, but right now, you are the one and that is the fact that matters. I will fight for this.

A beautiful song for the beautiful people around me; my parents, families, friends and my dear tiger.

p/s : Why tiger? Your default lah pandai.

Rain

2011-10-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

Feeling out of sorts. I love the rain, but it makes me feel out of sorts. Like grief, but I've no idea what am I upset for. Everything seems to upset me. And I've been missing on people too much that it hurts me badly. I'm a klutz at socializing, talking is a big effort for me, expressing myself and my feelings are harder. I'm awkward and like to keep quiet, I am more of a listener rather than a talker. I'm probably a wallflower, but bear with me. Maybe if you waited long enough, maybe if you keep up with me, maybe then I will start to bloom. And if I can accept you, why won't you accept me for what I am built from?

One of the band that I probably won't care to be skipping class for must be Coldplay. I listen to what I want and what pleases me, go to hell with your stupid prejudicial opinions.

Summarizing

2011-10-16T00:26:00.001+08:00

I'm just gonna summarize things here. I wrote a bunch of long, venting, in-your-face posts but decided not to post it publicly. Writing is a therapy but if it can cause me trouble, I'd rather keep it to myself. A lesson I've learnt way back when I was still fresh at the blogosphere (I've been dying to use that term for so long T^T)

So anyways, I am currently in my semester break and am being a lazy-a**. Haven't really done anything that is actually productive but I kept having bad dreams that usually have something to do with class or college.
Weird.
There was once that I woke up panicking that I'm late to class only to panic more when I see I'm at home before realizing I am still having my semester break. Paranoia much?

Aaaaaaaaand meet baby sprocket rocket, the newest addition to my little family of camera muse.
I haven't developed it yet and made the mistake of loading an ASA100 in it but hey, that means *drumrolls* double exposure! I'm still worried of it being underexposed though. I'm just gambling my luck here D:

Oh didn't they tell you? I am officially a glasses/spectacles/whatever-you-call-it wearer starting from today onwards. Turns out staring at the laptop screen for too long is not good.
Who knew? *eyerolls*
It's not like it is my fault that tumblr is wayyyy too addictive than chocolate. It still can't beat the awesomeness of macarons though.

And I am being a lazy and slow reader too. Which is terrible I know, I usually finish one book of 250 pages in a day or two. I haven't took that much of photographs either. If this is growing up, I hate it. Guess I gotta preserve some parts of the old me.

Because I Don't Care

2011-10-05T16:22:00.001+08:00

Kau si talam dua muka yang tembelangnya sudah pecah. Silakan, memang aku suka dengar orang cakap belakang. Tapi tak apa, aku malas. Silakan untuk musnahkan hidup kau. Kerana bila kau tunjukkan perangai tak semenggah begitu, ramai yang buat perangai sama bila bersama kau. Jadi memang sama padanlah. Semoga satu hari nanti kau sedar, paling tidak pun jika buku bertemu ruas, baru kau tahu buruknya perangai manusia macam kau.

.......................

On a happier note, I've finished my first semester! Macam macam orang, macam macam perangai, macam macam latar belakang dah jumpa setakat ni. Dan akhirnya berjaya memandu sampai ke Kuala Lumpur (terima kasih kepada kakak saya yang konfiden konon tahu jalan padahal tahu separuh jalan saja - mungkin lebih patut berterima kasih kepada signboard?)

After my last paper, I took my roommates plus Rara & Raihan (nope, they are not sisters) to Wondermilk! Dengan penuh yakin aku drive walaupun tak tahu jalan, tapi persetan itu semua, sebab Google Map & GPS kan ada. Selamat tiba, Uncle Cina yang lebih kurang 40-an berpakaian sut dengan amoi 20-an berjalan menunjukkan tempat parking. Terima kasih, tapi itu anak Uncle ke girlfriend Uncle? Ok tipu tak tanya pun, but you gotta wonder though.

Me, being happy

Because milk is gooooooooood

Adorable Rara being, well, adorable

Adorable cupcakes, muchhh more adorable than Rara

And a guy who work there gave his number to Rara. Two guys is 24 hour Rara! Bak kata Anum, 'We are only commoners, nobody want to give us their numbers', thus I accept my fate. Ok no, apparently the guy knew Rara. But still.... hmmmm.

Makanya esok saya ada shopping date with Anum yang tak pernah jejak kaki ke Bukit Bintang.

p/s : Those yang minta tutorial hijab, sila bersabar sedikit. Saya agak sibuk minggu ini. Minggu depan insya-Allah I'll settle the thing :)

Nocturnal

2011-09-21T01:47:00.000+08:00

0059 21/9/2011

Letih tapi mata tetap tak lelap. Ketagih Plants vs. Zombies gara gara roommates. Tapi matluthfi kata jangan salahkan orang lain. Tapi memang salah roommates aku pun sebab suruh aku main. Sekarang baru nak mula baca buku. Malangnya tangan dah mula nak menggigil dan badan rasa letih.

Something hurt me. Surprisingly, words. At first I couldn't place why it hurt so much. I lied about going to bed. I keep tossing and turning but I only fell asleep around 2am.

Let it pass.

Makanya end up buat benda yang aku selalu buat : baca nota sambil berguling atas katil.

p/s : Goodluck untuk finals bagi semua rakan seangkatan saya.

Jantung Hati

2011-09-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

Being around them makes me happy. It's difficult to feel down or sad for so long when I am with them. Right now, these people are my 'pengarang jantung buah hati blablabla' all that. Basically, they are pretty much like the air that I breathe everyday :)

And you too, I was touched that you actually came all the way from Johor. I really appreciate it. Honestly, nobody had ever treated me like this before, it's kind of unreal. All I gotta say is, a person gotta be an idiot to treat you wrong, and I don't want to be that idiot.

After Midnight

2011-09-10T01:13:00.000+08:00

This guy. . . . Well, go figure :p
Now, off to sleep. Goodnight creatures of the night times and insomniacs, don't stay up too late. Unless you're studying of course. Which however, I should advice you, get some sleep before the day of the test or exam. I answered my test half-asleep, so not worth it. =_____=

Slowly

2011-08-29T12:13:00.000+08:00

Taking things slow was so not my specialty.
But yeah, I guess it's different this time around. I will try to be as patient as I can.

..............

Life has been treating me well lately. Never perfect, never is, nor it will ever be. But lately I've been craving to eat and to shop. I have no idea why and tumblr-ing all day doesn't help when the people you follow reblogs awesome shoes/bags/clothes/ and foods, glorious, yummy-looking food. I mean, hello? I am fasting hereeee!!! (Why in the world do you guys reblog food so much anyway???) My iftar food intake have been increasing lately and I am looking forward to fit into my baju kurung thank you very much. And saying I'm gonna diet for the few days before raya is a completely and utter ~~bullshit~~ lie since I've just eaten a whole regular size cheese crust Domino's Pizza just now (but my mom took a slice though, kira diet tak tu?).

Oh and I'm spending my raya in the usual place this year; Home, Shah Alam, Kajang and KL (ummm I included KL cuz I'm planning to shop while all the city dwellers went back to their kampung, so KL will be like padang jarak padang tekukur liddat, hopefully, hihi)

Now, this video. . . Let's just say that I was bored and am easily amused. Plus the song is cute :3

At Times

2011-08-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if I was just being a nuisance.
A bothersome little kid who is lonely.

As scared as I am at falling again, but it's the truth and I can't help myself. Yes, I am scared I will get hurt, wounds don't heal overnight you know, and I don't want to rush into things. So please, can you wait?

.................

Looking at my old photos in flickr is inspiring me to get back with my stuff. Screw them glasses, I'll buy the cheapest one and invest in a new camera instead.

Ssshhhh

2011-08-11T22:49:00.001+08:00

Photo by Amir Afiq

Biar lantang dalam diam. Tapi kadang kadang lebih baik diam saja.

So this is it. I think most of you can already guess based from the picture. I became a talent for a friend of mine who was doing his assignment. He's quite a talented photographer to be frank, it's just that I was dead nervous and I have a certain dislikement (not a real word) of seeing my pictures taken. I guess it's just my insecurities playing up. Or I actually really look weird (fat/ugg) in pictures.

And I will be honest, my face is not as clear as in this picture. This is the first time I've seen my own face without the bumps and whatnot too. Ahh, the wonders of photoshop.

Sekarang nak kena fikir macam mana nak bagitau parents aku pasal benda ni =______=

Bullets of Words

2011-08-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

"Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed?"

Aku manusia punya hati dan perasaan juga. Terlalu lama aku menunggu, I was walking away and you did not stop me. Maaf bila aku pentingkan diri tapi dah terlalu selalu aku biarkan diri aku tak dipedulikan. Sampai masanya aku perlu ambil berat tentang diri sendiri.

Tapi tak apa. Dunia masih belum berakhir. Aku lebih kuat dari semalam. Ada masa kita menangis, ada masa kita ketawa. Tuhan itu Maha Adil.

Kenapa menulis? Because the power of words, therapeutic and affecting at the same time.

Also, I have a pretty exciting experience to share. Later maybe, in another post.

Empty

2011-08-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

"Because an empty room can be so loud"

I'm losing it, I'm losing you.

Padah bila blogging sambil layan lagu emo.
Nak tahu cerita gila? Sekarang aku dah pandai nak overnight tak tidur satu malam and spend the night luar kolej sebab pakcik ~~jaga~~ polis bantuan dah tutup pagar by pukul 11. Makanya melepak dekat extreme park sampai 5 pagi. Gerak McD, sampai sana buat macam kedai nenek moyang aku, tidur dekat meja eventhough tak order apa-apa. Tapi rasanya akak tu tak sampai hati nak halau kami sebab muka aku sangat awful (perasan moment). Penat, tapi seronok I guess. Parents obviously tak tahu apa apa. Oh well, I'm still here aren't I?
By the way, don't tell my mom & dad.

I end up feeling pissed off rather than sad now. I guess that is a good sign?

You hit me once, I hit you back

2011-08-04T23:01:00.001+08:00

Hold your horses people, chill, it's just a lyrics of this song.

Perhaps I am the one who is delusional. Wishful thinking is just thinking, nothing will happen unless you make it happen.

I'm just tired. Friggin', overly, seriously, dead, tired. All I want right now is to cry myself to sleep and wake up at 11 o'clock in the morning and stay inside my room for the rest of the day. Being a vampire for a day is fine by me, really. I pretty much just want times for myself. Life is good now, it distracts me from being overly thinking, yet when night comes, it sinks in and each night I just want to cry and go home.

Oh shoot, a depressing writing. Sorry. Give me some macarons and I promise I'll write something that is not depressing.

2011-07-21T13:24:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah and Barakallah :)

*My camera is acting up so I didn't even bother bringing it, therefore this is pretty much the only picture that I have. Haven't got ahold of the other pictures.

Time is just not on my side, suddenly it's already Thursday and I'm like 'Whuttttt?'
But tomorrow I'm gonna see my ayam-ses again and I'm sooo glad :D

Desperate

2011-07-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

Bila markah kau sucks big time.
Bila assignments kau menimbun kalah Mount Everest.
Bila semua lecturer kau decided nak bagi test minggu ni juga.
Bila kelas kau cancel tapi malam kena ganti.
Bila hari hari kau makan tengah hari lauk ikan keli dan malam dok makan benjo cheese.
Bila hari hari kau tidur pukul 1/2/3 pagi.
Bila pinggang kau asyik sakit sebab dok mengadap laptop lama sangat.
Bila hari hari kau datang kelas dengan objektif nak get the day over with.

You know you need your holiday.

Senang kata aku tak sabar nak cuti. Jangan nak kthxbai sangat.

Barely Legal

2011-07-10T17:36:00.000+08:00

Like Mira said, they are the lovable weirdest craziest people

Thank you for all the birthday wishes, I haven't really been online for real. If you see me online, that's just the computer, I'm doing something else. Also, sorry for neglecting this page. The only thing that I usually do online on a daily basis nowadays is tweeting and that is just because I'm a hardcore self-professed twitter addict (especially when I'm bored). Holiday is coming up but so much assignments and tests and quizzes to study for. Oh well, have a good week people :)

One Month

2011-06-24T20:16:00.002+08:00

It's weird how one month can pass so fast. It's even weirder that after only 5 weeks living there it already felt like I've been living there since, well, forever. Classes are fun and I'm not even kidding. Yeah sure assignments are a LOT but hey, we are in the foundation year.

Oh and the pressure is on. Home is somewhat a luxury nowadays.

Adapting

2011-06-18T15:52:00.000+08:00

I didn't went home for this week. I'm too buried in assignments, plus, the World Scholar's Cup kids who's staying at my college is pretty cute so, yeah, I'm staying here for this weekend and I actually don't mind. Honestly, I'm quite enjoying staying here, though it is nice to go home.

I'm bored.
Both of my roommates had fallen asleep (another is having a sport training session - she's from the Sport faculty) and I'm getting sleepier so I think I'm gonna take a short nap too.

Hello

2011-06-12T12:11:00.000+08:00

When you start thinking about the difference of Natural Law School and Positivist School while you're taking your shower and brought the Fed. Constitution with you everywhere, you know you're finally a law student.

Down with a really bad gastric and terribly awful headache. Not a joyous weekend for me. Hope you guys are having better days than I am.

Selesai

2011-05-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

Orientasi selesai.

Next week dah mula kelas. Fuhhh. Nak mula kelas ni lebih cuak berbanding nak orientasi. Alhamdulillah dapat roommate satu kepala dengan aku. Satu orang TESL, satu Sport Rec, satu lagi sama dengan aku ; Law. Dah dapat jadual dan group kuliah, kena buat kawan baru nampaknya. Jadual aku mak aih pack habis. Tahan je lah setahun ni. Belum mula kelas dah pening kepala memikir nak skor CGPA.

Oh ya, how come nobody warns me about UiTM Shah Alam having too many steep & tall and just generally lotsa stairs everywhere? =______=

Berat badan aku turun 1kg woi lepas habis orientasi. Memang ohsem sangat lah kan. And now my stomach is making some weird sounds O____O

It's Time

2011-05-20T20:33:00.001+08:00

Me at 1a.m. on the other day, drinking milk, trying to look cool while wearing Cik Abang's wayfarer that I 'borrowed' and unable to sleep.

This night is gonna be the last night I'm spending at home as a teenage-who've-just-finished-school. Gonna be a student starting tomorrow. I know my home is near. But this is a big change for me and everyone else. In lifestyle, in maturity, in every other things. I'm still trying to wrap my head around the idea of being a student. Ready or not this is inevitable. Yeah, I'm excited, and nervous. Unexplainable and it's a waste of time trying to explain it. Some would understand I guess.

So goodbye to the friends who I couldn't meet to say it face to face. Thanks for everything and sorry for some things. It's okay, I'm a friend of yours eventhough you didn't consider me as your friend anymore. Good luck to everyone in spite of everything. I don't keep grudges much, only stinky old people and cheesy Indonesion sinetron or Malay drama do that nowadays anyway.
I know it's not like I'm going away or whatever but it's just proper because I'm moving forward.

Well, I've just finished packing. I should have my dinner but I don't feel like eating. Actually, I felt a little sick. Like there's too much emotions rolling in my stomach and all I want to do is throw them out. Weird.

And I forgot to get a haircut. My fringe is just frightfully awful right now. Ugh.

Almost

2011-05-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

Current read aku : The Virgin Suicides. Misi sekarang ialah habiskan baca buku ni sebelum daftar masuk.

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Honestly aku takut nak masuk Uni. Dalam hati sempat maki diri. Apa benda lah yang aku takut sangat aku pun tak tahu. But that's it, we fear the unknown. Aku takut sebab aku tak tahu nak expect apa. Lagi lagi lepas selama 5 bulan aku hidup aman damai tak payah buat apa apa. Senang cakap macam ni lah, AKU CUAK NI WOI!

Okay someone call aku tadi. Perbualan adalah seperti berikut :

Pemanggil (W) : Assalamualaikum.
Aku : Waalaikumsalam (sambil tengok nombor yang unfamiliar)
W : Ingat lagi tak, ni W? (bukan nama sebenar) Dari science stream?
Me : Aaaaaaaaa (dalam hati : Ha? W? W mana ni? Aku ada kenal orang nama W ke?) Oh ha'ah Puncak Alam eh? (padahal tak ingat langsung siapa)

Dan perbualan menjurus terus kepada dapat uni mana dan tawaran JPA. Bila aku bagitau aku punya PIDN, bukan PILN si beliau pun mengundur diri dari perbualan. Aku segan sangat nak cakap aku tak kenal dia.

Maaf lah memori aku bab bab nak mengingat who's who ni memang harus digeruni, setakat kenal muka okay lah. Sampai topik nama terus blank.

Random Update Yang Entah Kali Keberapa

2011-05-14T20:46:00.021+08:00

Life is such a beautiful thing for those who appreciates it.

"People only see what they want to see. Even when it's the reality, some still can't see the truth because they just refuse to accept it."

Makanya buku ini membuatkan aku rasa bersemangat untuk memiliki polaroid. (~~Cakap~~Tulis macam ada duit sangat, semua benda pun aku nak)

On a happier note : Alhamdulillah aku dapat asasi undang undang di UiTM Shah Alam. Siapa lagi yang dapat Shah Alam juga? Meh kenal kenalkan diri, saya pemalu orangnya, jadi lebih afdhal kalau tegur saya dulu. Mwehehehehe. Miao, bai.

Relevenisasi

2011-05-10T21:28:00.020+08:00

Aku tak tahu sama ada relevenisasi merupakan perkataan yang wujud dalam kamus dewan, jadi sila jangan gunakan dalam karangan. Sekian.

Apa relevannya kau menegur orang dengan penuh amarah & carutan sambil bersembunyi di belakang alasan untuk bertazkirah? Tolong tunjukkan kepada aku sebab aku tak faham. Sesetengah pengisian boleh walaupun dicerna namun penuh rasa jijik dengan perkataan dan intonasi kau yang tiada unsur menegur sebaliknya lebih kepada mencaci. Aku tidak sempurna sama sekali dari segi apapun termasuk keagamaanku tapi betapa sedihnya melihat seorang perempuan Islam yang berpendidikan begitu jatuh darjat, adab dan maruahnya kerana mencerca yang lain dengan begitu lantang dan penuh kebanggaan. Jika kau begitu open minded sehingga boleh mecerca manusia sebegitu rupa, pasti kau boleh menerima teguran atau cacian mahupun ludahan dari orang lain dengan mudah bukan?

p/s : Aku rasa tak berbaloi habiskan banyak tenaga pasal dia. Kau nak perhatian sangat bukan? Therefore I am not giving it to you.

Day Six : 10 Items You Can’t Live Without

2011-05-10T18:56:00.007+08:00

1 - My parents. Not an item, but do I need to explain more? They are pretty much my everything.

2 - Twitter. Not an item either for real but it's something that I am addicted to. Sometimes I don't tweet much but I still read the tweets by others.

3 - My handphone. Actually, my blackberry. Why? Because I can BBM with cik abang endlessly without worrying my credit will die on me.

4 - Water. Our blood is 92% water, sooo, yeah. Another thing, I usually drink plain water.

5 - MONEY! MONEY! MONEY!

6 - Milk. Either Goodday fresh milk or that Dutch Lady low fat milk. Bakal roommates sila take notes : jangan curi susu saya.

7 - My books. It's something that I grew up with that it became a part of my life.

8 - Computer/laptop. Sebenarnya boleh je tapi aku dah tak tahu nak tulis apa.

9 - Umm, I'm running out of ideas. Foods?

10 - Thank God it's number ten. Hmmm, bread? Wait that's food. Uhhh, my car? Eh no, transportation. Yup, transportation.

Fuhh, aku tak berapa nak attached dengan barang barang aku so payah sikit nak list kan benda ni.

Day Five : 10 Wishes

2011-05-09T21:34:00.003+08:00

Sebenarnya dah terlambat sehari ni tapi tak apa lah.

1 - Nak iPod Touch 16GB. Dan ada banyak games. Yes saya seorang kaki game. Dan saya baca manga. Dah kata nerd kan.

2 - Sprocket Rocket + 5 rolls of slide films.

3 - Tiba tiba JPA bagi aku study psychology dekat luar negara. Takkan terjadi, I know. By the way I *heartssszz* JPA sangat sangat sebab tangguh lagi tarikh result.

4 - I could adopt a panda as my pet. What? Kata wish kan?

5 - Semua jerawat, bumps and whatsoever 'cela' dekat muka tiba tiba miraculously hilang bila aku bangun dari tidur.

6 - Dapat kerja yang berpendapatan tinggi. Muehehehehe.

7 - Magically get a cheeseburger when I wish for it, and pizza, and cakes, and macaroons, and and and lots and lots of other foods! :D

8 - Dapat walk in wardrobe lengkap dengan segala pakaian dan beg dan kasut.

9 - My studies would go well dan dapat ijazah dan keputusan cemerlang.

10 - Umm, murah rezeki, panjang umur & jumpa jodoh? Hahaha.

Day Four : 10 Things You Want To Say To One Person

2011-05-07T21:53:00.003+08:00

1 - You really should stop going out late at night you know.

2 - Drive carefully, when I screams at your driving, I'm serious. No, I'm seriously effing serious.

3 - Stop bullying me T______T

4 - Pull up your pants!

5 - Start sleeping at night and waking up in the morning instead of sleeping late at night and sleep almost all day. You're not an owl, you're a human.

6 - Why in the wide world do you detest sweet food?!

7 - I know I'm bad at cooking but hey, you're a good cook so you can teach me how to cook asam pedas instead of cooking it by myself. Hewhewhewhew.

8 - Initially people said that we are so different from each other, like heaven and earth they said, yet now I think we can work this one out.

9 - Can I iron your hair straight? Ehehehe, sorry but it's just too tempting to ask that! :D

10 - Oh sikit lagi lupa. KAU STILL HUTANG AKU!

Agak agak siapa lah ye? Hahahahahaha (gelak monotone)

Day Three : 10 Things You Hate (or Don't Like)

2011-05-06T16:33:00.009+08:00

People said that hate is a strong word, and I don't really hate too many things so Imma list the stuffs that I don't like.

1 - Waiting. I am an impatient person. When I get impatient, I get angry at the smallest thing.

2 - People who think they knows me better than my parents. Umm hello, I am a product of my parents marriage, they know me better. You only knew me for like, what? A year? And you already saying that you know 'people like me'? I stress 'people like me' cuz they are like me but they're not me. Learn to differentiate that, ~~whore~~ honey.

3 - I dislike vegetables. I think my kindergarten teacher can be one of the many reasons for that. We were forced to eat our vege and not in a good way. I guess they're not big on child psychology back then. Plus my friends taught me to chuck 'em under our lunch table. Hihihi.

4 - Slow internet line and fb yang makin menganjing. Sorry, I'm just really pissed with the IM right now. Grrr.

5 - Weird noises on the ceiling at nights. It creeps me out ever since my neighbour told me that she saw 'something' at our taman here. So now every time I hear the noises I turn on my radio or just cover myself from head to toe with my blanket.

6 - People who assume I'll lend them something of my possessions. Ever heard of politeness & asking first beforehand? No? Wow, your kindergarten must sucks.

7 - Jerks who think they're so hot and they're not cuz they only look good, dressing up wayyyy to 'cool', hangs around pavilion entrance and carries a DSLR. Real ones who is actually passionate about it are okay I guess. But well, you know what I mean. Plus they always give me that 'eyeing from head to toe' when I pass by them at the entrance. Creepy much?

8 - People who can't spell correctly. 'Ak da ly wat'? What in the freaking world is that? I ain't replying unless it's urgent or you learn to spell correctly first.

9 - The cold water in the morning. I don't have a water heater and my mom don't think we need it so having a shower in the morning is a hell of a wake up call.

10 - Having a chewing gum stuck to my shoes. I HATE this one. Seriously people, be hygienic please, it's disgusting. Dah namanya sampah, so sila buang dalam tong sampah.

Day Two : 10 Things You Love

2011-05-05T20:17:00.005+08:00

1 - My parents. For the obvious reasons, and for being there when nobody else was there.

2 - I love rainy days and the smell of the rain and the smell of old books.

3 - Foods! Particularly cheesy stuffs, cakes, cupcakes, marshmallows and macaroons ; basically sweet stuffs.

4 - Sambal belacan. I know it's foods but sambal belacan has earned the right to have a number to itself. Hihi.

5 - Singing by myself. Yes, alone. (FYI bila dengan orang saya sangat self-conscious)

6 - My cat! That fat lazy furry thing that only meows when her food is finished in the bowl and she wants more.

7 - Musics! Who doesn't right?

8 - I love shopping for clothes, but I love book shopping better! Especially bookstore warehouse sale :DD

9 - My favourite pair of jeans. I just love it.

10 - Ummm, Cik Abang? Ehehehe.

The 30 Days challenge is postponed because I suddenly became a little busy nowadays. I'll start it when I have the time. Plus my camera is going mad, I think I need a new lens but I can't really afford it now T_____T

I Iz Bored & 10 + 30 Days Challenge

2011-05-04T18:38:00.009+08:00

Nampak macam semua orang pun buat yang 10 days 10 things challenge tu. Therefore aku terjumpa pulak 30 day clothes and accessories challenge dekat tumblr (found at dirtylittlestylewhoree).

What you gotta do is just post a picture of the listed 30 stuff underneath for 30 days :

1. Your closet.
2. Your favourite shirt.
3. A piece of clothing or jewelry that was a gift
4. A shirt that you haven’t worn yet.
5. Your favourite pair of jeans.
6. A pair of pants that aren’t jeans.
7. A cute outfit of yours.
8. Your most expensive article of clothing.
9. A cute dress/ skirt.
10. An outfit you wore on a special day.
11. A piece of jewelry that a Grandparent gave you.
12. A piece of jewelry that everyone complements you on.
13. An outfit you wish you had.
14. Cute socks.
15. Your newest purchase.
16. You and someone wearing matching clothes.
17. An article of clothing that you made or altered.
18. A piece of jewelry that you made.
19. All your earrings, rings, necklaces and/or bracelets.
20. Your jewelry box.
21. Something that you only wear around the house.
22. Something you only wear in the summer.
23. An article of clothing/ accessory that you consider lucky.
24. Your favourite pair of shoes.
25. Shoes you love but hardly wear.
26. An mismatched outfit that you’d never wear (go wild: earrings, belts, crazy skirts etc).
27. A hat.
28. An outfit you are ashamed to say you wore.
29. Something that is your favourite brand.
30. Something from your favourite store

Nampak macam interesting oleh itu aku nak ikut this challenge, tapi esok lah baru mula kut. Ehehe. By the way, Bejah I am challenging you on this. Amacam, takut tak? Muehehehe.

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Tapi sesambil tu aku nak juga buat yang 10 Days thingy tu. Jadi let's get started.

Day One : 10 Things About You

1 - Saya lahir dekat Sabah. Walaupun secara teknikalnya saya tak ada darah Sabah dalam badan saya tapi kalau orang tanya kampung saya dekat mana, saya still akan claim Sabah kampung saya. Cenggini lah semangatnya orang-orang Sabah. Muehehe.

2 - Saya suka kamera lama. Tak tahu kenapa. Basically saya suka kamera secara keseluruhan tapi saya lagi suka kamera yang guna filem.

3 - Nama penuh saya Najihatul Aulaa. Masa kecil semua orang panggil Najiha. Masuk sekolah menengah, kawan kawan panggil Nej. Pindah sekolah baru masa form 4 haritu, kawan baru panggil saya Aulaa. FYI, dulu saya tak suka orang panggil saya Aulaa.

4 - Kebanyakan barang barang yang agak berharga milik saya telah saya earned sendiri : either guna duit elaun sendiri yang saya kumpul atau result exam saya bagus. Jadi sebab itu saya rajin sikit study bila tahun yang ada exam. Hahaha.

5 - Saya malas nak makan nasi. Jangan banyak tanya. Dah memang saya malas.

6 - Saya pemalas. Buku nota sejarah saya tak pernah lengkap/siap/dibuat. Paling paling 10 muka surat pertama saja yang ada bertulis.

7 - Mak saya tak suka manjakan saya sangat. Dia kata dia tak nak saya jadi getek ('gedik' in Sabahan) dan nak saya bersyukur dengan apa yang saya ada dan berusaha sendiri. Well it works quite well.

8 - Saya makan bila saya bosan. Currently saya asyik dok melantak roti & peanut butter. Kadang kadang kalau saya bosan rasa peanut butter je memanjang, saya campur chocolate syrup hershey sikit sekali.

9 - Saya pemalu orangnya. Tak banyak cakap. Kadang kadang saya cakap maksudkan lain tapi orang anggap lain. Kiranya saya agak awkward lah kalau dengan orang orang yang saya tak kenal atau baru kenal.

10 - Saya tak tahan pedas tapi saya suka sambal belacan. Pelik? Memang.

Random Update #5

2011-05-03T14:36:00.011+08:00

I've experienced both lucid dream & paralysis. One time it was so real I could see my body while I'm floating above my body in my room. Then in a flash I'm suddenly inside my body (Is this a right sentence? This made me feel like in a ghost story or something) and I couldn't breathe. It was creepily bizarre.

Currently lounging around doing nothing and this sounds so lazy but I am lazy so there is no point denying that. I've discovered that Cik Abang made a very good shopping partner. Also, Bruno Mars resembles the monkeys so much that it is a little bit disturbing (sila rujuk video The Lazy Song bagi yang tak faham). My neighbour had nightmares about Bruno being a monkey after we watched the video. Oh yeah, my car is a wreck thanks to an ungrateful motorcyclist who rammed my car with his bike and try to blame it on me AND try to rip us off, telling us a broken fork cost RM300. Hello? My car is missing a side mirror and two of the door are badly smashed by you and your stupid motorcycle and you try to rip us off for 300? I don't think so you son of a bi*ch.

Therefore I pretty much stayed at home nowadays because I can't really go anywhere because my car isn't fixed yet. Life is boring right now. Thank God for neighbors and their colourful school-teens-stuff-problem. Though I still can't figure out why do they refuse to eat because of a guy. Life goes on darling, you should enjoy it, not waste it over a crappy guy.

Mak Pesan

2011-04-24T22:25:00.011+08:00

Mak saya pesan, jangan layan orang gila. 'It's not worth it' katanya. Sebab saya anak yang (agak lah) baik, saya dengar cakap mak saya.

Reminder to self : I'm better than that, I'm not gonna lower myself to their level. Let those monsters see you smile.

lagi lagi kau minta title

2011-04-13T12:52:00.008+08:00

Fed up dah nak fikirkan title.

Minggu ni patutnya aku balik Kajang.
Tapi tak jadi.
Minggu ni patutnya dapat lepak dengan Bejah & Effa.
Tapi tak jadi.
Minggu ni patutnya finally dapat lepak dengan Meon.
Tapi tak jadi.
Minggu ni patutnya buat Nutella cupcakes.
Tapi tak jadi.
Minggu ni patutnya keluar shopping.
Tapi tak jadi.
Minggu ni patutnya jumpa Cik Abang.
Tapi tak jadi.

*tarik nafas panjang panjang*

On another note, aku kena panggil pergi temu duga biasiswa JPA.
On another, another note, pagi tadi Cik Abang ping aku banyak banyak banyak kali sampai aku terbangun dari tidur dengan penuh annoyance dan jawab dengan 'Em' sebab aku tak kisah, bukannya pakai kredit pun. Lepas dia kejutkan aku, dia pulak tidur. Ni aku nak kejutkan dia dah berpuluh ping aku hantar tak juga bangun bangun. At least aku reply jugak walaupun dua huruf je.

Just Sayin'

2011-04-07T12:37:00.008+08:00

What's In My Bag

Just a random photo I submitted for 'Fuck Yeah! What's In Your Bag?' tumblr. I'm bored. That's obvious. If I said I feel like doing a cover of a song a chorus of voice in (and out of) my head will said 'Like you can even sing?'.

Freedom (as I've googled) is the quality or state of being free. Therefore we have the freedom to disagree. I may not like it and I may disagree but I will not push you to agree with me. Therefore I respect your decision, I may not like it, and I probably want you to change your mind but in the end it's your choice, your life and you have your own human right to own your freedom. That's why you have to make the right choice. Freedom is a sense of power over our own self, we do what we want, I guess that's why we have rules, some makes sense, some are not to be questioned, some are just obviously for so-and-so own self interest. So we have a boundary, so we know where to stop, to keep us in control from hurting others unfairly. Freedom are not something to be manipulated or misused. Freedom are also letting people have their opinion, we may disagree, but we should respect each others' opinion. They might be wrong, and it will be shown in the end so let them be. We might be wrong and we will realise it eventually. As simple as that. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, is just the matter of how you present it. Freedom doesn't just involve ourselves but also other people, sometimes we forget that.

I wonder if I even made any sense above. But it kinda made sense to me. Oh well. I just need to vent out.

Another Sabtuday

2011-04-04T15:09:00.000+08:00

Event : Chic POP
Venue : Jaya One
Time : 9 a.m - 6 p.m

Penatnya ya ampunnnnn masih tak hilang. Esok (Isnin) baru dapat rehat fully. Nasib baik aku tak kerja esok, padahal memang penganggur terhormat pun (nada yang tenang, tangan di dada, mata pandang ke atas).

So I'm going to be one of the losers who is too tired to care about ABPH and gonna read about it (or ask my mom about it) on the next morning and I'm gonna go to sleep now. Kthxbai.

Sabtuday

2011-03-30T15:37:00.000+08:00

Perasan tak kalau gambar dengan SPTNKSWTHRT & Jezmine muka aku lain macam. Bila orang suruh senyum time segan jadi lah muka distorted macam tu.

p/s : Gambar black & white dicuri dari facebook SPTNKSWTHRT

Lepas pergi Old Blossom Box, pergi UiTM kejap. Sekarang berdoa dapat tempat and dapat kampus Shah Alam. CEPAT AMINKAN RAMAI RAMAI!

Oh ya bagi yang tak berkesempatan pergi semalam, ni ada lagi event. Datanglah ramai ramai ye :)

Muchos Gracias!

2011-03-24T11:06:00.008+08:00

Budak yang lepas dapat result dok terconggok
dekat McD dari tengah hari sampai petang

Terima kasih for all the comments yang positive which made me go through all the studying and also the negatives who made me want to prove them wrong and hell yeah aren't you SO wrong?

So here's the moral of the story :

Kalau tak kenal orang, jangan nak rendah rendah kan orang, nak perli perli orang. Sebagai tenaga pengajar patut bagi sokongan ataupun tegur dengan baik. Bukan menyindir bagi students rasa down.

Kalau aku nak thanks tumblr for keeping me sane boleh tak?

Anyways terima kasih banyak banyak everyone for all the wishes :')

Hey Moon

2011-03-20T11:58:00.000+08:00

Northern Downpour - Panic! At The Disco

Bulan terang, hati senang. Tak ada kaitan sebenarnya but idk, it rhymes *shrugs*.

Anyways itu gambar yang aku ambil pada malam bulan 'supermoon' dari depan rumah aku. Mula mula aku terbaca 'sailormoon'. Ha-ha-ha, okay tak lawak. Gambar dari dalam pagar sebab anak lelaki jiran yang form berapa entah tiba tiba lalu sambil bersiul naik basikal keliling taman.

Oh ya : DUA HARI LAGI (yang berkaitan sila faham sendiri)

First Attempt

2011-03-18T16:55:00.006+08:00

Ok firstly aku minta maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki kalau ada tersalah kata. Ini vlog first aku dan aku tak ada topic nak merepek so aku merepek pasal Rebecca Black. Plus ni kira macam trial run dan kualiti kamera aku sucks. Nanti aku buat yang proper punya Insya-Allah kalau dapat laptop (tone mengharap). Sementara tu, ini video aku yang merapu dengan bahasa yang tunggang langgang. Kthxbai.

p/s : loading memang agak bertahun dekat sini (at least on my desktop lah), kalau nak tengok boleh pi sini http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E24bFY5-YWs

Are You Freaking Kidding Me?

2011-03-18T10:06:00.002+08:00

Adele - Right As Rain

Happiness are the same for everyone. It's how to achieve them that is different.

..............................................................

*edit ; I'm including the video so you can see what my points are.

So I've just watched that Rebecca Black video and my mouth was hanging open the whole time with my right eyebrow raised while my facial expression is frozen to 'terribly horrified' mode. The longer I heard the song, the worse it got. By 2:00 I was so horrified and prayed that my cat would suddenly jump at my desktop and attack the screen just so I'll have a better and more interesting watching experience.

What kind of a sick joke is this? Like, seriously?

I get it, yesterday was Thursday, it's Friday today, and tomorrow is Saturday and Sunday comes afterwards. Yeah, I learnt it when I was six. AND CHOOSE THE SHOTGUN SEAT NEXT TIME, THEY HAVE AIRBAG IN THE DASHBOARD. What is so hard about choosing your seat in the car?

To calm the horror after watching and listening to 'that', I recommend a good dose of Adele or Metric or whatever other than 'that', really. Just make sure it's something really good. And double the dose.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have a playlist playing on loop so I can get 'that' out of my head.

*edit*
Or you could watch this instead.

Random Update #4

2011-03-16T10:34:00.002+08:00

Sebab malas nak menulis jadi hari ni kita buat list :

- Result SPM 23hb ni. Nightmare malam tadi sangat horrible sampai tak sanggup nak cerita *shivers*

- Trackpad buat hal jadi tengah risau dan cuba stay away dari excessive usage of phone harini. Which is hard sebab aku seorang twitter addict. See? I admitted it. I'm recovering!

- Budak PLKN dah balik, so Haziq dah balik. Aku cakap aku rindu dia, dia kata aku gemuk. Adil ke macam tu? Ha? Adil ke? =_____=

- Kucing aku dok mengiau tak berhenti henti sampai Umi jadi tension last last dia meleter kucing aku. Now aku yang tension sebab dengar mak aku meleter kucing aku.

- Filem masih belum dicuci. Kedai dekat Puncak Alam kata kena tunggu sebulan baru siap. I'm like 'Whuttt? O____O' So kena pergi Shah Alam lah nampaknya.

- Sangat mengharap dapat lesen secepat mungkin sebab aku dah itching nak merayau bawa kereta.

- Seriously, aku perlu pergi shopping. No argument.

Oh ya hari ni ramai betul yang kongsi birthday ye?

Happy Birthday kepada Bejah, Akmal 'Addam' Azri, dan anak saudara saya di Sabah ; Addak Iqbal :)

p/s : Tak ada kredit, sebab tu tak boleh nak wish through text.

Yellow Muse

2011-03-07T20:35:00.005+08:00

Say what you want to say. Screw you.

You are not the one who fell down while riding and torn your pants and have scars and bruises on your right leg and wince every time you have a shower. I got back up and have some more rounds before I went home and trust me, waking up today, convincing myself to ride again wasn't easy (and yes I am being over-dramatic on purpose - I just told myself I'll have fat legs if I don't do it, simple enough).

Tick, tick, tick. Results are going to be out in no time. Who wants to get some sushi and then go to the cheap-yet-fun-looking arcade place with me?

Random Update #3

2011-03-02T16:21:00.008+08:00

Sorry marah marah kau hari tu. PMS sikit rasanya (rasanya lah). Nanti belanja aku sushi okay? Kau tak suka kau tak payah makan, biar aku je yang makan. Dan jangan nak gedik sangat.

Oh ya. Selamat bulan Mac kepada semua orang! Aku pun tak tahu apa yang aku update ni since tak ada topik pun sebenarnya. Unless you wanna talk about food! No? Not even about cakes? Mac & cheese? Soto? No? How about Asam Pedas? Mehhh, you're no fun.

Clues : Nej need to a) Diet or b) Exercise.

Diet tak pernah berkesan cuz aku lapar siang malam. Umi kata sebab aku nak mem'besar', whatever that means. Oleh itu, belikan saya treadmill satu? Boleh lari sambil tengok tv kan? Hewhewhewhewhew *pengaruh Bejahaha.

Oh haritu mimpi Bejah, hahahaha. Ok, 'bejahaha'. Get it? Tak? Ok never mind aku dah merepek lagi. *sorry Bejah!

Looking forward for a (hopefully) great month! Eh eh lupa! Bulan ni result keluar! =______=

p/s : kepada si polan yang dok nak mulut celupar dekat Effa ; KAU TAK ADA LIFE EH?

Random Update #2

2011-02-27T16:50:00.006+08:00

Mihun Soto is the best. Seriously. Entah kenapa sekarang asyik nak makan benda alah ni. Oh well. Anyways rasa nak beli kasut baru. Remember when I have this need-a-new-bag monthly issue? Now it's want-new-shoes. Yup, I've officially became a shoe-holic girl.

So I'm selling this bag in the picture below ;

The bag is ~~RM75~~ RM70 with postage. It has never been used so it is pretty much new. I reckon you could fit a laptop in there.

SERIOUS buyer please contact me. DM me at Twitter, PM me at Facebook, or ask me at Tumblr. And contrary to popular belief, I don't bite and I don't eat humans.

Random Update

2011-02-23T22:20:00.004+08:00

Been pretty busy doing some little project of mine. Anyone knows where to get the stuffing for plushies? I seriously could use some help here.

Anyways I have some good news and unsure news.

Good news : My sewing is getting better. Mom would be so proud.

The not-so-sure-if-it’s-good news : People have been saying SPM results is going to be released next week (28th Feb). I personally am sick of hearing gossips about the dates but nevertheless is jittery as all of us are. Anyone could at least give me some news? Anything?

The only time I went out now is because I ran out of milk or cereal or mobile top-ups (I pretty much can’t live without those three things. FYI, I eat cereals day and night). Today, I only step out of the door to close the house's gate. How cool is that? Yep, not cool, I know.

footnote : What the hell is wrong with the Libyan government? Massacre? This is outrageous! Do you think the world is that dumb? And where the hell is the UN? Stop talking and start acting! DO SOMETHING!

Being Alive

2011-02-21T22:14:00.005+08:00

To just breath and live is not enough. To be joyful, to love and be loved, to hate, to hurt and to be hurt, to smile, to cry, to laugh. To FEEL.

It's okay to cry. It's not because you are weak, it's because you are capable to feel.

Growing up is already painful enough to deal with tahu tak? Don't tell me you forget that.

p/s : PMS kut. Keep at safe distance.

In Business!

2011-02-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

Items for sale in picture ; chocolate turtleneck, vest & bag

An old friend of mine called me up and the conversations runs along something like ; 'Yeah we need cash' and 'I'm clearing up my closet' and 'We should sell our clothes!'. So we decided to open up a blogshop where we could sell our stuff.

Hear ye! Hear ye! We are officially open in business! Visit our blog, The Zealous Respire for pre-loved items with reasonable prices!

Stuff For Sale

2011-02-15T14:20:00.012+08:00

Okay this time it's not really what I wore today because I didn't even went out today. I'm just selling some stuff here because I was doing a bit of spring cleaning and found some items of clothing that I almost NEVER wore. So the items that is shown in the above picture are for sale EXCEPT the shades (my mom's vintage shades), the shawl (mine, obvie), and the jeans.

*UPDATE*

A friend and I decide to open an online shop, so we are going to sell our stuff there. Therefore I've removed the pictures here. I will update the link as soon as possible. Thanks :)

Entri Campur Aduk

2011-02-14T16:39:00.006+08:00

What I wore last Friday

Gambar tiada kaitan dengan apa yang aku nak tulis sebenarnya. Oh well. Lepas ni aku nak mula buat 'What I Wore Today' lah. Sila doakan usaha aku untuk entertain diri sendiri semasa cuti kali ni berterusan. Tapi kamera kena hantar servis. Atau beli lens baru. =______=

Which brings us to this topic. I need money. So I guess I'm selling some of my shirts or stuffs.

Okay sebab aku dah sangat tension. Ini ada aku nak cakap ;

Sure, kita semua entitled to have our own opinion tapi jangan pandai-pandai nak halalkan benda yang haram. Jangan tanya aku atau kawan kawan kau unless kawan kau memang cukup berpengetahuan. Pergi tanya orang yang sepatutnya, bukan sebarkan apa yang kau fikir betul. I admit that I'm not that pious of a person, but some things are just not to be done.

Dah. Itu saja. Maaf aku emo sekejap.

p/s : MICK JAGGER WAS AWESOME AT THE GRAMMY AWARDS! Can I have your number? Hihihi

Zoo Day!

2011-02-12T16:28:00.006+08:00

Zoo was fun! And we saw Lisa Surihani and Bob and (I think - cuz he got his back turned away from us) Lan! They were filming that zoo movie I guess. Anyway we were too tired and eager to escape the heat to bother to wait for them to pause and take pictures or whatever. We had lunch in KL then made a beeline to BB.

And since my shoes are pretty much destroyed after walking the long distance (long distance lah sangat) at the zoo, I bought a new shoes which coincidentally became the most fabulous pair of shoes I owned! (Can you tell how excited I am? Yeah, I guess you could.)

My legs are still sore till today and tomorrow is the 6 hours driving class. Mehhh.

Baking & Social Networking

2011-02-08T18:14:00.006+08:00

*Tajuk yang seperate dan tiada kaitan antara satu sama lain. Sekian.

Aku suka benda manis, especially cake (marshmallow strawberry cheesecake! OMNOMNOM!). Dia tak suka. Dia cakap aku bukan Melayu tulen. Kfine apa apa lah kau asalkan nanti kau reti nak masak asam pedas untuk aku sebab aku suka asam pedas ikan pari tapi tak berapa nak reti masak (memang tak reti pun =___=).

The finished product! Yay!

*Satu batch jadi cookies. Keras teruih aih!

Okay sambil sambil tu aku nak iklankan Twitter aku sebab aku sangatlahhh bosan okay. Jadi sila lah rajin rajin menegur sebab aku tak makan orang. Sebenarnya dekat luar (real life) aku tak ada lah kau-aku sangat, more like I-You gitu (kenapa macam gedik bila aku tulis macam ni?).

Cerita pasal social networking ni (bukan movie Social Network), Facebook aku more like private thingy so janganlah ambil hati sangat kalau tak approve or delete sebab itu memang hobi aku. Haha okay tak, actually sometimes aku rasa tak selesa. FYI aku agak introvert, and tak banyak cakap, jadi kadang kadang tak tahu nak borak pasal apa. Yang Myspace pula memang dah jadi sejarah lah kan. Entah bila last aku buka pun aku tak ingat. Flickr pulak setakat nak hosting gambar je yang lebih. Kalau tumblr memang paling aktif lah kan. Hari hari dok reblog or cari bahan or merepek.

Oh ya. Aku kena tolak untuk bekerja dekat Scrt R. Pffftttt.

I'll Eat You Up

2011-02-04T15:55:00.010+08:00

*gambar dicuri dari facebook Bejah. Hihi.*

Sangat seronok okay (orang lama tak shopping yang cakap, jadi memanglah seronok kan). Sempat pula jumpa Bejahaha sekejap dan dia sangat comelllll dan lawaaaa dan putihhhhh okayyyyyy! Sempat lah borak sekejap dekat depan Maybank StarHill tu (cheh nama nak glamour je) lepas tu aku pusing balik pergi Pavi sambil singgah-menyinggah dekat Fahrenheit sebab mau cari air-cond. Malangnya aku lupa aku bawa kamera so tak ada gambar dengan Bejah guna kamera aku =___= *tahniah Nej, kau officially seorang pelupa, ketuk kepala kau sikit.

Okay perenggan ini untuk kau. Aku tengah dalam proses belajar bawa kereta/ambil lesen sekarang jadi sila bersabar sikit ye. Tak boleh nak jumpa selalu, mak ayah wa cakap wa anak dara, risau naik public transport sorang sorang. Wa keluar dengan lu pun wa curi curi tau. Nanti wa ada lesen senang lah sikit wa nak keluar. Lu suruh ambik pun wa tak kisah, tapi lu bayar minyak lah kan. Haha.
I'll eat you up, I love you so.

p/s : Siapa ada DVD Where The Wild Things Are? Nak pinjam lah.

Kitty Cat

2011-01-31T17:48:00.003+08:00

Okayy. Seperti yang mungkin diketahui, that is Q (the cat, not the human - human tu aku).

Dan untuk pengetahuan anda (walaupun tak perlu tahu) Q is officially having a weight management problem. Yup. She have an obesity issue.

*I'm gonna let the fact sinks in

YA, AKU PUN BARU MENERIMA HAKIKAT YANG KUCING PUN BOLEH ADA OBESITI LIKE OMG! *ala ala Maria Elena*

Sebelum ni kami mostly suka suka je cakap Q obesiti, sekali doktor suruh dia diet. Like whattt? Oleh itu kami terpaksa paksa Q untuk diet. Amacam, comel tak? Kucing aku diet, kucing kau ada? MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Ok, maaf, cuti terlalu membosankan sampai hari hari twitter aku akan diupdate dengan ayat yang sama ('morning') setiap pagi. Sedih kan?

p/s : By the way, a friend of mine is giving away his cats for adoption. Anyone who is interested should visit Khalis's blog here

Black & White & Gray

2011-01-28T15:15:00.008+08:00

Hello. I'm Nej and I am utterly bored and for the record, a job would be the nicest thing anyone could give me in the time being.

Oh yeah, last night I dreamt that my roll of film turns out to be the best ever. Then I woke up and remembered that I haven't even sent them to be processed. Yeah.

Bye.

p/s : Not everything is black and white, sometimes there are the gray areas. Think about it.

Nota

2011-01-19T15:28:00.005+08:00

Nota kepada Mark Zuckerberg :

Okay fine kau dah famous since dah ada movie pasal kau dan social network yang kau cipta (tapi aku tak tengok sebab aku prefer Inception). Okay fine kau dah jadi People of The Year 2010 oleh TIME Magazine & siap jadi cover lagi. Okay fine facebook dah jadi macam sebahagian hidup aku jadi kira kau memang berjaya lah kan. Okay fine kau nak kasi 'UP' lagi facebook ni TAPI PERLU KE BUAT NEW PROFILE YANG AGAKLAH TAK SEDAP DIPANDANG MATA?

Okay, dah. Tu je yang aku nak cakap. Bawah ni lagu random saja saja nak letak sebab aku bosan.

You electrify my life. Cantik sangat timing ye?

Muahaha

2011-01-17T19:03:00.007+08:00

You won't believe how I was dying to get my hand on his Smokecity's cd when I was in high school. I'd be listening to his tracks on myspace on loop back then (Myspace age dude, remember those days?).

His musics mostly reminds me of certain stuffs which have nothing to do with the song, really, but it does to me. For instance I'd be thinking about rains or rainy days, the cluttering of raindrops on the roof, coffee, quiet days, the smell of those old books that is made of those brown/yellowish papers, the smell of sandalwood, those moments when I am the happiest, and I am going to bore you with the list so I'll stop here.

The Wknd Sessions #6.1 Reza Salleh - 50 Down The Way (2008)

Anyway, I have been too consumed in things I'd rather kept to myself that I haven't wrote much here, so disregarding whether anyone actually read some long winding story that doesn't really make sense, Imma write some long entry for a change. If you're not gonna read this, watch the video. I mean it.

So yeah, life is not too bad. I finally went back to Sabah after 8 years since I last went back there. It was great and KK totally changed. As in someone's (whom I can't recall) word "Traffic jam dah sampai, tol yang belum lagi". Yeah. Seriously, buildings are going up everywhere. It was pretty amusing since, well, I see those old place that used to be kinda the swankiest place when I was a child and then I see this shiny new buildings and malls and I realized how much time has fly. And then there is a lot of clubs and pubs. I iz amuzed. And dude they have a busking group every night (I inquired the waiter ; he told me so) at Jesselton Point. So anyway when I'm back here in Semenanjung all of us are coming down with a flu or cough or something. I'm mostly not that sick (yet).

I finished reading 'To Kill A Mockingbird' for the second time, first was when I borrowed my teacher's book last year. Now I'm reading 'The Catcher In The Rye' and honestly I am torn between amusement and annoyance. I mean this dude is a bratty rich kid who after being kicked out of school, ran to New York before his parents got the news of him being kicked out of school, rent a cheap, seedy hotel room on his grandmas' money, couldn't make up his mind and think he's so great and being depressed and all and dude I think now I realize something ; HE'S A HIPSTER. Yeah.

I haven't finished the book since I am reading it verrrry slowly so I could let the content be digested so I could at least see some sense in this guys' thinking and action. I still can't, actually. Maybe I need to re-read it or toss it behind my bookshelf. But hey, it is amusing. Maybe I will actually end up liking it by the end.

Since I'm feeling my gastric is coming up, I'm going to stop writing and go eat something. Bye.

p/s : SIAPA TAHU MANA KEDAI NAK CUCI FILEM CARA CROSS PROCESS DEKAT SHAH ALAM SILA BAGITAHU CEPAT. LAGI MURAH LAGI BAGUS (But quality counts too though).

Until We Meet Again

2011-01-14T13:20:00.007+08:00

KL > KK > Pulau Manukan > KK > Kundasang > Poring > KK > KL

Hectic and fast pace. Seminggu memang tak cukup. Oleh kerana naik Viva jadi tak dapat naik ke Mesilau and it was mostly foggy while we are in Kundasang so Mount Kinabalu was hiding in the clouds.
Tak apa, maknanya lain kali kena pergi lagi :D

Oh Dah Tahun Baru!

2011-01-02T20:11:00.006+08:00

Weh tahun ni aku dah nak masuk 18 tahun doh. Gila doh. Dia pilih KLCC doh. (Okay lawak last year, sorry.)

Cepat je dah 2011 kan? Malas nak imbas 2010, the past is the past. Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. Sudah. It was a great year for me, but I'm gonna make this year a better one if possible.

p/s : Selamat kembali ke sekolah bagi mereka yang bersekolah lagi! Muahahahaha! (Jakun sangat baru habis sekolah)

A Year Is Almost Over

2010-12-30T12:25:00.005+08:00

Was down with food poisoning for a few days. Blergh.

Hey it's almost new year. I never did any resolutions before this. Maybe I should start and just, like, make it as a list. 'Things I wanna do in 2011'. Sounds simple enough.

Okay, here goes ;

Things I Wanna Do In 2011

Get a driving license
Work (I guess? Still considering this though)
Get into a college or university
Take a long distance trip to somewhere by train
Try to stop feeling depressed for no reason
Exercise!
Buy a Superheadz Ultra Wide & Slim or Blackbird, Fly TLR (or both!)
Or maybe a Fisheye 2?
Be nicer to people
Stop being too spendthrift
Have more fun! :D

For now that is the only stuff that I can think of. Yeah no. 7 & 8 kinda clash with no. 10 but I'm a wee bit loose about spending money for cameras *winkwinknudge

Random Cryptic Stuff #01

2010-12-23T23:00:00.006+08:00

Tempted. Very very tempted.

(Kalau nak beli anything kau laju je kan. Lepas ni memang kena cari kerja la jawabnya.)

Growing

2010-12-21T22:48:00.011+08:00

Teenagers are rebellious.

Why? I have no clue. I'm still figuring out why. Not that I really bothered.
I'm a teenager. Why did I still do things even after I'm forbidden to do it? Because I think I'm right. Because I don't think people actually know what they do. Because people doesn't know how much some things actually meant to me. So why not do it my self?

I'm a teenager. I sulk, I cry, I laugh, I get angry, I had my lowest point of my life (in my teenager point of view), I like things to go my way, I try not to get upset if they don't because that is what people expected from a growing young adult, I give the silent treatment when I need to cool down, I try to be mature even when it hurts, I got confuse a lot and sometimes I understand more than people think.

The fact that I am quite oblivious to sarcasm even though I'm fluent of it annoys people more than ever. Especially when I prove them wrong.

So here I am, still a teenager but maybe with a hint of maturity. Bordering the young adult world, not at all that balanced, but hey, I am trying. Everyone is. And yes, I am still rebelling.

(Yeah, I do realize I am not right in everything, I am a teenager, not an idiot.)

p/s : Kau jangan nak menganjing boleh? Dah tua tak sedar diri, mati still masuk kubur sama juga macam kami.

Weeeheee

2010-12-19T20:19:00.008+08:00

Entry paling gembira sebab dah officially habis sekolah dan exam :D

Jumaat lepas buat BBQ.

Dah, tu je ceritanya, gambar yang terlebih lebih.

Ada banyak lagi gambar tapi malas nak upload, yang dekat FB pun dekat sejam tunggu upload. Menyampah aih.

p/s : Hoi siapa nak volunteer jadi driver aku pergi Rantai event? Dah lah berapa tahun kempunan tak dapat dapat nak pergi -__-

Over

2010-12-15T17:36:00.005+08:00

Happy is an understatement.
Overjoyed? Yeah, that's more like it.

Eh kejap, nanti jumpa jugak muka muka ni dekat BBQ kan? Cehhh.

Ye, tahniah untuk mereka mereka yang dapat pergi event Yuna/Maysaa tu. Ye aku sakit hati tak dapat pergi. Ok? Fine, pergi main jauh jauh, memang hobi aku bercakap dengan diri sendiri. Bai.

Almost

2010-12-10T18:46:00.007+08:00

Nak tunjuk konon nak habis sekolah ni bersemangat rajin bangun pagi pagi pi basuh porch depan dan basuh kereta dan cuci longkang. PERGH PENAT GILA TAHU TAK? (Kalau tak kuruih juga kaki ni tak tau la nak cakap apa lagi.)

Excited sangat dah tinggal satu paper je lagi sampai buang hampir segala buku dan kertas kertas yang ada kaitan dengan sekolah dan rearrange segala furniture dalam bilik (kecuali almari baju ; sebab nombor satu : mak tak bagi alih, sebab nombor dua : berat sangat - boleh juga diklasifikasikan sebagai malas).

p/s : Agak agak habis exam ni nanti patut cari kerja apa?

Present

2010-12-03T19:27:00.005+08:00

Present as in 'now', not 'gift'.

Abang posmen ni kan saja je tau. Bila hari aku dok terconggok tunggu dia sampai tang tu lahh dia decide taknak datang pula.
Benci betul lah.
Hari Jumaat posmen cuti ke?

Okay 7 subjek dah lepas, 3 subjek lagi. ~~Sabar weh~~. Tak sabarnya!

Umm

2010-11-23T19:15:00.004+08:00

OK, soalan rumusan pasal coklat.

Uhhh *cricket sounds

KENAPA COKLAT? TAHU TAK AKU LAPAR DAN MENGANTUK DAN TENSION NAK JAWAB AND SOALAN TIBA-TIBA PASAL COKLAT?

.....

OK, dah, pi makan chocolate ball, chill.

Eh nak tanya sikit. Kenapa aku makan banyak gila tapi berat aku tak naik naik? Aku tak normal ke apa ha?

Uh-huh

2010-11-19T21:03:00.004+08:00

It may be nonsense for you but it makes more sense than finding the x-intercept for me.

Okay, SPM is next Tuesday.
Start screaming now.

Distant Days

2010-11-13T20:50:00.006+08:00

I cry easily. I admit that.
Memories kept flying at me, haunting and distant.
Yes, I am scared of growing up. It's so full of 'What if's. Future is not for us to tell, nor for the people around us either.
Given the choice, not knowing or caring the long distance consequence, we recklessly screw almost everything up.
Yet it's pretty much the best time in our life.
Yes, you can regret it. But who you are today are the result of what you yourself did yesterday or the day before yesterday or the day before those days.

For the tears, for the joy, for happiness, for the love, for the sadness, for the first triumph, the first failure, for the first time we were hurt, the first rejection, the first breakup, the first of everything, it's okay, thank you, it made me who I am today.

There will be days when I'm not okay, where I'll get all pissy and stuff. But for now, I'm just fine. Thanks for the memories everyone.

Breathe In

2010-11-05T16:52:00.006+08:00

Muka baru nak insaf tapi kena ajak pergi makan sebab nenek nak balik and kakak belanja jadi tak jadi nak study (alasan tak boleh blah)

Planning lepas exam bukan main kemas dan rapi padahal baru nak gelabah pasal exam.
Tiket balik KK dah beli dahhhh. Wooohooo!!

Oleh itu : CEPATLAH JANUARI!

Okay lepas ni jarang nak update blog dan online sampai habis paper. Byebye.

Go You!

2010-11-02T00:01:00.001+08:00

Ini sahaja gambar yang I boleh cari jadi jangan banyak complain pula okay. Siapa suruh pergi privatekan gambar? Muahahaha.

Okay so nama empunya gambar dia atas ialah Adree, sila tepuk sikit. And yes I curi gambar fb you sebab tak ada gambar lain, kalau nak complain sila complain bila dah boleh buat free call.

Okay we first met dekat flickr kut (cewah macam nostalgik sangat kan) then masa tu still guna mypace dan kemudian ke fb. Bila dekat fb seronok kacau dia ni dekat chat. Sebenarnya tak pernah jumpa pun lagi but I guess we're pretty good friends and dia ada tolong buat kan page kelas saya untuk majalah sekolah (tepuk lah lagi).
Malangnya saya masih hutang dia makan pizza.

Ya, this guy yang akan menyambut birthday yang ke-20 malam ini sanggup pau budak sekolah untuk belanja dia makan pizza. Hahaha.

Anyways,

Happy 20th Birthday
Afif Adree
May you are blessed with longevity and prosperity
and enjoy all the fun shitz (your word) you're gonna have.

Dan yeee nanti I belanja pizza.
Hish, macam bukan 20 tahun. Haha, kidding Adrayy.

p/s : Yeah I'm gonna wish you multiples of times, jangan banyak tanya.

Kau : Creep

2010-10-27T17:00:00.000+08:00

Scala & Kolacny Brothers - Creep (Radiohead Cover)

Creep just got creepier.

Okay, jadi ini adalah result trial saya (Secara umumnya sahaja. Malas nak ingat A-, A, B+ segala tu semua)

*drum rolls*

7A, 2B & 1C

Kaching! Tak sia sia membanting tulang buat latihan Math dan dengar cikgu Sejarah (dan cikgu cikgu lain) membebel.
Muahahahahahahaha.

Okay dah, nak tengok Criminal Minds dengan Umi. Bai.

Life's Unfair, Get Used To It

2010-10-23T13:25:00.011+08:00

You can't get everything you want.

Jadi aku tak beli baju baru, ataupun beg baru, dan tak jadi beli basikal fixie. Aku nak exercise je, pinjam basikal jiran pun okay watt.
Anyhow, I've decided I'm going to buy this ;

Blackbird Fly TLR

Isunya aku tak tahu nak warna apa.

Yeah, I know, dari dulu lagi nak beli tapi tak juga beli. And a friend pun ada point out, (memujuk I guess?) baik lagi beli fixie. Tapi entahlah, my guts tells me this is more worth it. Maybe I'm right, maybe I'm wrong.
Tapi bak kata Umi, 'Duit awak, sukahati awak lah. It's your own responsibilities, jadi apa-apa nanti tanggunglah sendiri.'

..........

Actually bunyinya macam mengugut kan? -.-

Aku Benci Nak Bagi Title

2010-10-21T17:09:00.007+08:00

Tajuk konon hebat. Tapi serious lah, aku paling benci nak tulis title. Kadang-kadang tak ada kaitan pun tajuk dengan body.

Rambut dia warna pink.
KAU ADA? TAK ADA KAN?

Tapi rambut Hayley merah.
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
(Tahniah kepada sesiapa yang dapat tengok Paramore live. Saya benci awak.)

footnote : Sekarang dah makan pun nak makan lagi. Lapar tak habis habis. Lepas tu tamak. Semua kau nak beli. Dah, pergi makan sana.

Random

2010-10-15T14:50:00.000+08:00

A friend told me that no, I don't really understand how a guy's mind work.
He's right, I don't. But I'm pretty damn smart to know when someone is being stupid for their own good.

Ego? Everyone have them. Even me.
It's either mentality or just plain stupidity that doesn't make you rational and puts the ego stuff on the line.
I think it's just selfishness.
Because you want to feel good. Because it's you.
How about the people who actually care about you?

Sometimes it's so hard do define which is pride and which is ego.

*****

A cop was trying to calm down a yelling drunk young woman.

Cop : Ma'am please act like an adult.
Woman : I am an adult! I turned 19 last August!
Cop : Being an adult and acting like one isn't the same thing.

That makes me wonder.

Done! / Oh-wait-no

2010-10-13T17:22:00.007+08:00

My bed looks so much more inviting after the last paper.

Me : Oh bed, I miss you!
Bed : -
Me : I know! Sorry, here, let's hug!
*crash*

And I'll fall asleep till mom would knock on my door telling me it's morning and I still have school to attend and the real exam to sit for next month.

Tsk. Touché.

p/s : OMG I'm so happy IDK why hihihihi (Okay have I pissed you off?)
p/p/s : Okay great, Ayah dah habiskan my coke sebab tak perasan dia balik tadi -.-
p/p/p/s : Okay Adrayyy whaddaya mean you have a new toy?! Why do you always get whatever of those really cool stuff? Gahhhhh!!

pengajaran : Jangan suka sangat, nanti merana.

Macam - Macam

2010-10-10T20:49:00.008+08:00

Note : Ini boleh diklasifikasikan sebagai antara entry yang banyak gambar memandangkan aku tak banyak post gambar akhir-akhir ini.

Sabtu lepas pergi wedding kakak Shazz dekat Kajang, dan bila dah jumpa semua semua ni memang akan end up lepak hu-ha semua lah.

The bride and the groom. Shazz, abang ipar kau handsome lah.

Me, Khusu, Shazz dan Haziqah.

Yang ini Man, first time jumpa depan depan. Rupanya Man lagi tinggi dari aku T.T

Tipu lah kalau tak jealous bila tengok kulit dia putih gila kan? Haha.

Seriously excited.
Seriously.

The Gigolo's.
Not my idea, trust me. Haha -.-

And then Syed proceed on making a new recipe from all of the leftovers on the table which was tasted by himself, Faez (yang actually dipaksa makan), Ali, Fad dan Syamim. Tahniah kepada semua sebab berjaya menelan that, um, thing.

I had fun last Saturday weh, lama tak rasa gembira macam tu. Thank you all :)

2010-10-07T16:12:00.003+08:00

They are like the cutest couple ever.

*****

Stress. Sebab dah lama sangat, sangat, sangat tak jumpa.
Lantak aku lah nak merengek, dah blog aku. Dahlah tengah sakit hati dengan segelintir manusia yang agak psycho dekat fb ni.

p/s : Mannnnnn! Sabtu ni nej balik sana kita lepak McD main UNO jom? Bosan gila ni.

2010-10-03T17:49:00.008+08:00

Screen buat hal, padahal baru baiki CPU (nasib baik tak campak sebab mengenangkan nanti aku mati kebosanan kalau tak ada skrin yg buat sakit kepala 10 kali ganda lagi teruk). Tengah berkira nak beli kamera Blackbird as the last buy.

Lepas ni nak berjimat, nak masuk universiti kena banyak berjimat. Kau bukan anak orang kaya walupun ayah kau Datuk kepada berbelas (atau boleh masuk puluh dah?) orang cucu yang boleh buat satu batalion askar. Sekarang beli barang pun kena berkira. Plus kawan aku betul, jadi addicted beli beli kamera ni.

Hidup bukan senang. Benda yang kau nampak dekat tv, wayang semua tu - budak masuk sekolah rendah, then sekolah menengah, SPM screwed up then end up masuk LimKokWing (Lagi lah wadefak. Macam tak ada Uni upscale lain dekat Malaysia yang nak di shoot) dan asyik lepak dengan kawan-kawan. Tipu gila. Realiti - SPM kau bagus dapat masuk Uni kerajaan, duit PTPTN atau MARA lambat masuk, tebal muka mintak mak ayah duit kalau desparate, makan maggie sebab nak berjimat dan tak tidur malam buat assignment. Aku tak kata aku tak ada duit, tapi tak juga kaya tahap Datuk K belikan Datuk Siti jam yang boleh beli banglo sebiji (Seriously agak ridiculous weh, come on, membazir gila. Baik beli kereta, at least berguna jugak).
Boleh je nak extravagant kalau mampu, tapi tengok keadaan lah juga.

Jadi kesimpulannya pandai pandai sendiri lah nak agak.

p/s : Kali ni post macam ni sebab baru borak dengan sepupu aku yang dulu ambil fast track law dekat UiTM pasal course yang patut di-apply, so makin banyak afterthought dan kinda like l’esprit d’escalier but in a different way.

p/p/s : Dan senario yang disebut itu cuma hipotesis dan simulasi keadaan. Sesetengahnya memang dialami oleh manusia sebenar.

For The Kiddies

2010-09-30T13:03:00.008+08:00

Buat aku rasa nak mula cycling.

4 more papers to go.
Terpaksa tolak job sebab tak ada masa. Haihhh.

Kononnya Hiatus

2010-09-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hiatus?
Nak trial
Takut nak janji sebab selalu nafsu tinggi sangat nak online. Hahahahaha.

Khamis ni paper mula. Buku rujukan Tasawwur takda lagi, dahlah paper persendirian.
Hebat kan?

Okay dah saya nak study, byebye.

Remember Remember

2010-09-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

Life is short and waits for nobody.

Tadi blogwalking. Baca blog kawan lama, Amalina. Arwah Engku Arif Adlan (Al-Fatihah to arwah) is her boyfriend, jadi aku cuma boleh bayangkan apa yang dia rasa sekarang. Tapi bila baca entry entry dia yang recently, aku menangis. Seriously aku menangis. Like I said, you can only imagine how it feels losing someone you love until you really lost them. Be it your parents, your irritating sisters or brothers, your friends, or your other half. Even imagining it aku dah rasa lemah.

Memang senang nak cakap, 'Be tough'. But it's not easy. It never is easy when doing something that is worth it kan?

"Cherish everything you have right now.
Live it, appreciate it, do the best with what you have."

footnote : Tak jumpa around sebulan lebih lepas tu jumpa dalam 30 minit. Haihhhh.

Gradually

2010-09-14T11:51:00.000+08:00

"There is a time when we all fail,
Some people take it pretty well,
Some take it all out on themselves,
Some they just take it out on friends,
Oh everybody plays the game,
And if you don't you're called insane"

p/s : The moment it starts playing I already love it. And Julian also said 'One more time' in the end so I played it again, and again, and again, and again . . .

It's Eid

2010-09-12T10:52:00.000+08:00

Tahun ni macam banyak pula aku depan kamera kan?
Ada gambar yang dicuri dari Cik NurulCakapCakap dan Cik IzzahSayaTipu. Sekian.

Yayyyyy!!

2010-09-09T12:32:00.000+08:00

Semalam sampai.
Hihihihihihihihihi.
(Ok dah, annoying sangat)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

Maaf kalau ada yang tersinggung sama ada sedar atau tidak. Saya demam dan kurang sihat oleh itu tak berapa nak larat nak wish semua orang personally. Kredit handphone pun Encik Boyfie yang top-up kan semalam (Thanks, sayang awak).

p/s : Semua orang jaga diri dan raya safely okay. Al-Fatihah kepada arwah Engku Arif Adlan, a mutual friend of mine yang kembali kepadaNya baru-baru ini. Semoga Allah merahmatinya.

Old Flame

2010-09-04T17:21:00.001+08:00

Tadi dengar lagu lagu lama dekat pendrive. Terjumpa lagu ni.
Aku masih rasa Luke Pritchard sangat sangat sangat lah comel, even now.
The Kooks FTW!

Weh, malam tadi aku mimpi jumpa Hayley Williams, then boleh pulak lepak dengan dia (WTH?). Dah tu nak ambil gambar sama-sama tapi tak sempat nak ambil tu terus aku terbangun. Hish.

K fine pergilah korang semua enjoy tengok Paramore sana Oktober ni nanti. Pffttt.

Love Love Love

2010-08-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

Tak payah explain. Benda ni macam memanggil aku untuk beli. (I mean, apa aku buat dalam kedai CD? Buang tebiat?) Maybe sebab masa PMR dulu pun tahun sama dia lancarkan EP? Tak pergi juga tapi dapat CD with autograf dan ucapan good luck for exam atas jasa baik kakak-kakak aku yang pergi launching masa tu.

And dapat 8A for PMR.
Super Something maybe? Haha.

p/s (or spoiler) : There's an acoustic rendition of Dan Sebenarnya inside. Definitely the sweetest yet :)