Tuesday, November 5, 2013

I guess I've just figured out one of my fears. I was afraid of being left alone, in a figurative way I mean. I have no problem being alone, heck I enjoy my time alone. And even shopping alone! I can buy as much as I want and it's usually done in a shorter time (downside is, no second opinion so more chances of buying things I don't need). But that's not the point. What I'm trying to say is that I'm afraid of having nobody for me. It sounds a little selfish, I know but, it's scary if one day you wake up knowing that nobody is there for you.

I met someone, and I like the person. Basically, I jumped to the opportunity, too hastily really. And we tried to work it out but he's right, we're just two lonely people and the thing that's broken and needed mending is ourselves. We're selfishly trying to run from our own real problem. He have things to deal with and I have a desperate need of someone to cling on, and it's not right.

I understand where he is coming from so I still consider him as a friend though I'm not sure if he's comfortable with that since he's kind of avoiding me.

And here I am, slowly swallowing the bitter truth and accepting that I'll probably not get married as soon as my sisters are.
That was a joke, though I kind of have a feeling that it will turn out that way.

--- iklan sat ---

WEH AUTHOR SALAH SATU BUKU FIXI FEVRET AKU REPLY TWEET AKU YANG AKU TAK MENSI PUN DIA OR NAMA BUKU DIA OR APA APA PUN OMG I AM HYPERVENTILATING WHAT TO REPLY TO HIM I CAN'T EVEN THINK RIGHT NOW OMG OMG OMG

2 comments:

Anis Zaydi said...

Man, I so love reading your blog. It's like reading mine without me writing it. Do I sound like a stalker? I hope I don't because I'm not. Anyway, much love and good luck :D

Nej Jalidar said...

thank you, I'm glad you like my writing :)